Apparently I should have life figured out

I swear, yesterday I was six years old. Now suddenly I'm 20 and I'm graduating from university in 6 months. Uh...what?  I don't know how this happened.

Preparing to graduate from University is even worse than graduating from high school. When you're a senior in high school, you constantly get bombarded with "So where are you going to Uni?" or "What are you planning to study?" When you're close to graduating at Uni it becomes "So what are you going to do in the real world?" and "Got any jobs lined up?" and maybe even "So what are you doing with your life?" Four years of University means I have an answer to these questions?

My response...A blank yet awkward face that reads.... I don't bloody know!

What's wrong with just living in the now and worrying about the future later? Does that make me irresponsible?

When I attempt to answer the question I end up throwing out random possibilities and try to sell the "So many choices and still so young" line... And I always get the same reaction (This girl has got no clue!).

This really is a strange feeling, I feel like I've been in Uni forever, yet when I look at how close it is to finishing it feels like yesterday I walked into the lecture theater on O-week with 300 plus new students.

I've asked class mates what their plans are when they finish and it disturbs me somewhat that they all seemed to have it planned out. I guess you could say I'm a little jealous. I've always been one to set goals, yet somewhere along the way I lost sight of my career goals.

I feel that University has held me back from doing what I want, Travel, Dance, Volunteer, Visit a 3rd world country - help those less fortunate. These are real life experiences I have put off. I guess my heads so full of dreams that I'm not ready to settle down in the real world with a full time job pumping out story after story as a journalist for the local paper or TV station.

I guess you could say I'm a passive spectator, watching my life unfold one day at a time. I like many others just hope that I come to a sudden realisation one day and get my life on track... but I guess spontaneity has got the better of me at the moment, knowing that their are so many possibilities excites me...why must we always have a plan!

For now I'm just going to step one foot in front of the other. Maybe somewhere along the line an opportunity will present itself...maybe not... maybe I'll work staraight away...maybe I'll travel... who knows. Life shouldnt be taken so seriously, I have the rest of my life to work! It seems to be all we live for... I don't want to look back and say 'I went to school, went to uni, went to work, got married, had kids, end of story."

I want to live a little!